Note: This video is a bit tougher than usual to watch. I think I am getting better at speaking though; I deviated from the script a few times.
I’ve been trying to cut the time to record this all week. Despite being unemployed, I’ve been remarkably busy. Can’t complain about that though.
I’m recording this update, unlike the last two. I just had too much going on in my life during the last two to record an update. I’d just had another seizure and, little did I know, would have another just a few hours later.
I’m starting to warm up to the idea of driving after my license is un-suspended. I’m still not fully comfortable with it, but there was a logical explanation for why I had the seizure and a good record for the seizure meds that I was on. We’ll revisit that conversation around month 5. No need to sweat that now.
I’m currently having troubles with other meds though. My risperidone, an anti-psychotic medicine that I take for mood stabilization and anti-anxiety, is giving me vertigo and nausea. I’ve been on this medicine for almost a year without these effects, so I’m not sure why it’s suddenly doing it. I checked with my neurologist and my psychiatrist and my neurologist assured me that my newest anticonvulsant medicine wouldn’t interact with the risperidone in that way. Says that he even looked it up to be sure. I’m dumbfounded as to what could be causing this. My psychiatrist agreed that I should go back to taking it before bed to minimize the problems, but he didn’t offer any solutions just a Band-Aid for a broken arm, so to speak. I go to interview a new psychiatrist on December 7. Hopefully he will provide a bit more attentive care. Considering my experience thus far I doubt it though. Oy, I swear that I cannot get a break since the summer. If it’s not one thing, it is another…
On a positive note, I’m beginning to volunteer at my church as a Lay Eucharistic Minister. I already know all the theology behind the Eucharist (I took a course on the Theology and History of the Eucharist at Candler School of Theology), but I’ve never participated on the ministering end before. I’m rather excited about that. It’ll be one more strain on Florrie driving me around, but she’s behind anything that’ll give me purpose. I’ve not gone to a dark place yet, but I can see how purposelessness has a dark part to it. I tend to gravitate toward depression too, so anything we can do to keep me from that is great. I am also looking into volunteering at my Church’s Meals on Wheels program. I realize it’s a bit anticlimactic from my promise of “big things” last blog, but it’s better than nothing at all.
Alastair is doing relatively well. He’s battling conjunctivitis, also known as “pink eye”, and an ear infection, but otherwise well. He’s still doing fantastic in daycare. We all love his teacher, Ms. Phyllis. She is an underpaid saint. The things she teaches those 1 year olds to do is mind-blowing.
Florrie is doing well also. She’s mid-swing on the semester at the intermediate and college levels. She loves her jobs so much and it is such a blessing to watch and encourage her. I can’t make my dreams come true but there’s nothing stopping me from putting my whole effort into helping to make hers come true.
As always please excuse any difficulties there were in my rate of speech and the tonality. I’m still working on those. Eh. That’s probably enough for now. Thank you for watching this.